DAY SIXTEEN

I liked what I saw in the mirror today. I’m really seeing a difference. And my skin is getting soft. I was hungry here and there, but often wanted to finish what I was working on and put the juicing off. Meals were timely, though, and I got an extra pint in.

Today I emailed my sister in Canada and asked her if she’d ever considered juicing for her health. She’s very slim and eats well, a lot of vegetarian and vegan stuff. She suffers from eczema and so do her little girls. She was also struck with bell’s palsy at the birth of her son a couple of years ago. The right side of her face is paralyzed. She’s a beautiful girl. Anyway, she said she HAD considered it, but had read that doing it while nursing was not advised. So maybe later. (my words)

My daughter who had planned on juicing for one week, then moving to once per day had a mental breakthrough today. She said she had a chicken and rice dinner last night. She’d been very much looking forward to it, especially near the end of the week. But she said the food did not meet expectations. It was just food. And she felt terrible all evening. She likes juicing. She says it’s simple, she always knows what’s for dinner (or other meal), she feels great all day, it’s the easiest meal to clean up, and she will continue to melt away her extra pounds. This announcement (over the phone) made me very happy. I want her to be healthy and happy and comfortable in her skin. So, she was pretty excited about that realization. She said she won’t beat herself up if she decides to have a meal here and there.

WEEK TWO WEIGH-IN

5 POUNDS! That is nearly a pound a day, and even after the initial water-weight was gone. If I keep up this average, I will be at wedding weight in 6 weeks, high school weight in 8 weeks. ... and birth weight in... oh never mind, the cleanse will be over by then.

DAY FIFTEEN

Juicing was fine today.  But I’m experiencing a lack of motivation to do anything beyond juicing and cleaning up around us. I’ve got to pull myself out of this.

I DID recruit a California cousin to our juicing Facebook page, which is very cool. I’m not sure of her goals or commitment level just yet, but I look forward to finding out.

Another good thing – I got on the rebounder (on and off) while I watched a Netflix movie. I will add that more. Today was a gorgeous sunny day and I didn’t even take advantage of it. We should have gone for a walk in the hills.

I read in bed for a while this morning, since B didn’t have to go to Seminary, it being a holiday.

DAY FOURTEEN

Every time a write a new day number, I want to put an exclamation mark after it. Every day seems like such an accomplishment. And it is. Tomorrow is weigh-in. That was a long week; I’m sure it had nine days in it.

I’ve had a few low moments where I thought, ‘What am I doing? Is this really possible? Is this worth it?’ But then I really answer myself. I’m doing this to heal, to rid myself of symptoms. I’m doing this to finally lose the weight that I’ve struggled with for twenty years. I’m doing this so that I never yo-yo again, because I will remember the sacrifice I once made and know that I will never do it again, not for this long. I’m doing this to get rid of my sugar addiction and cravings. I’m doing this to gain greater access to the Spirit. I’m doing this to accomplish something few people have or ever will, to show myself what I’m made of. I’m doing this to strengthen my singing voice. I’m doing this to discover which foods I’m allergic to, and will know when I slowly add things back in at the end.

So yes. YES. It’s possible. And it’s worth it. And I will never regret having done it. One day at a time.

DAY ELEVEN

I continue to feel better. So much better. Had a great day of juicing and alkalizing. I don’t think I can afford to ignore the sodium bicarbonate for a while, or ever. And the extra liters of water. I’ve ordered pHour Salts from Dr. Young's pH Miracle Living website, which has three important salts besides the sodium bicarbonate. Because it’s much more expensive than just using the baking soda, I’ll probably use it only once a day in conjunction with the other.

I really enjoyed my lunch smoothie today. Let's see if I remember...

Juice - 1 green apple, about six ribs celery, 1 English cucumber, handful baby carrots, parsley, tiny ginger

I put it through my almond bag for smoothness (which I usually do), then blended it with a third of an avocado and a little flax oil. So yummy.

As I’m still trying to heal, I went back to bed from 9 to noon. After that, I got a few things done, but didn’t push myself today. If things continue to go this well, I will be back in the swing of things in no time. Meaning, I can continue pursuing all my goals that I’m so excited about.

I made some apple/celery/spinach juice for my 14-yr old son tonight and he liked it a lot. He so needs this, so I will make sure I find ones he likes. Even if it’s just the same one each the time.  

Overall, a great day, considering I was suffering so much just yesterday. I’m so grateful and relieved.

DAY TEN

Wow, what an awful night and day. My ‘heart’ issue was out of control and I was up for most of the night. I’ve been to the emergency twice for it and those times it wasn’t quite as bad as this time. But doctors do not know what is causing it. They say my heart looks fine and I have the blood pressure of an eighteen year old.

The odd thing is there’s not really pain with it per say. Sometimes a squeezing and more like a muscle spasm pain, maybe like I used to get when I was a teen. I get woken up in a near panic as my heart beats strangely. I feel like my life is being sucked away and I could lose consciousness. It was really bad when it happened last night. I got up quickly to walk it off, feeling week and shaky. I beg God throughout all this, please don’t take me yet. Sounds dramatic? Yup, it is.

I knew it was time to hit Dr. Young’s protocol big time. I don’t know why I ever doubt him. He has the answers every time.  So I took a shot of sodium bicarbonate water, followed up with a liter of water or lemon water. I did this every hour on the hour, trying to sleep when I could. All night I was shaky, weak, and scared as my ‘heart’ was freaking out. I use quotation marks on ‘heart’ because no one’s even sure it’s my heart, including me. I really don’t see what else it could be though. Anytime I tried to recline slightly though, it would get worse. As I alkalized and hydrated myself all night, I finally got some relief and was able to sleep by about 7am. Today has been tolerable but still worrisome.

Finally tonight I feel great relief, almost back to normal. Another very nice thing about the sodium bicarbonate is that it’s really cleaned me out and I feel so fresh. Perhaps my detoxing took a toll on my ‘heart’ because I wasn’t eliminating it all properly. That’s probably what Dr. Young would say.

I’ll take another shot of baking soda now and retire. I hope I can sleep. I hope the worst is behind me. I hope my self-doctoring (or un-doctoring) will take me far away from these frightening symptoms, then I swear, I will NEVER abuse my body again. Meaning junk food, etc. Life is too good for that.

DAY NINE

Somehow I’ve thrown my lower back out, so I struggled to move around today. Luckily getting work done at my computer wasn’t too big of an issue. It’s when I tried to get up that I struggled. I think juicing will help me heal quickly. I’m hoping.

Juicing went great. I indulged in a grapefruit and orange juice for lunch, just two cups, then had a veggie–only snack a couple hours later. It just worked out that way. Then for dinner, I did all veggies, no sugary fruits. Not very tasty. But my face flushed soon after like it did occasionally when I was eating alkaline before. I think it was a sign telling me that I did something super good for my body. I will do occasional veggies only, probably for dinners.

I felt fine except for the couple times I felt hungry. But that’s easy to fix. I juice.

For the most part, I’m happy with how things went today. I was quite productive for a day being in pain. I could have taken Ibuprofen, but chose not to.

I watched several videos of fullyrawkristina today. She inspires me. Not only because of what she eats, but how she looks and her sweet and awesome personality.

Symptoms:

I just realized that two more symptoms are gone, in that short of time. They are both related to nighttime. Sometimes before I go to sleep I feel itchy.  Then I scratch. And sometime it can even keep me up for a bit. This happens to me when I fall off the diet wagon and start eating sugar again. Well, unfortunately I had gotten myself to that uncomfortable stage again. But now it’s gone. That’s quite a relief.

Another symptom I get when I let myself get too overweight is a debilitating back pain during the night. I’ll wake up in so much pain, like my muscles have seized up, that it takes all my will power and strength to roll to a new position to relieve the pain. Because of it, it was never an option to sleep in. It would only get worse the longer I stay in bed. That is gone now too.

I’m getting more hopeful for my scaly forehead to clear. It still feels a little rough (I feel it mostly just after I shower and the water and evaporated from my face, before I use moisturizer), but I really think it’s improving. That will be a sweet day when it feels normal again.

DAY EIGHT

Today was a low energy day and not a very productive one. I'm so grateful for tomorrows.

WEEK ONE WEIGH-IN

Down 6.6 lbs
So that got me to before Christmas weight. That's a good thing.

DAY SEVEN

It’s been a week and I’m still alive. Not only that, I’m thriving. Only thirteen weeks left to go. One day at a time.

Tomorrow morning is my weekly weigh-in. I’m pretty excited to see what improvements I’ve made in the weight loss department. I've chosen to weigh weekly instead of daily for several reasons. I want to be free of my scale obsession. I think the main reason is because of the mind games it plays with me. If I don’t lose any weight, it lies and tells me, ‘You've had no progress’ and ‘You must not be doing it right, or doing enough of what you are doing.’ I hate those deceiving voices and I’m tired of them. A weekly weigh-in will surely free me from them, as each week should be a noticeable drop.

On the opposite spectrum, if I see I’m doing well and have lost a lot, the enemy voice tells me, ‘you did it! You are amazing. You can relax your focus now and cheat a little here and there. Sure you’ve still got 20 to 30 pounds to lose, but at least you’re not embarrassed by your weight and size now.’ For this reason, I almost committed to not weigh at all until the very end. That’s still alluring. But I have decided there are benefits to weekly weigh-ins. One, it will be fun encouragement for me and I won’t have to wait so long to reap the benefits. And two, for anyone following, you will want to know if it’s working. (And so will I!)

I will post the photo of my weight in the morning.

So here’s to my first weigh-in! I’m excited.

Goals:
Today is Sunday and therefore my day of rest and worship. Other things get done here that I don't necessarily do during the week, things of a more spiritual nature. I love my Sabbath days.

Isaiah 58:13,14
If thou turn away thy foot from the sabbath, [from] doing thy pleasure on my holy day; and call the sabbath a delight, the holy of the LORD, honourable; and shalt honour him, not doing thine own ways, nor finding thine own pleasure, nor speaking [thine own] words:

Then shalt thou delight thyself in the Lord; and I will cause thee to ride upon the high places of the earth, and feed thee with the heritage of Jacob thy father: for the mouth of the Lord hath spoken it.

DAY SIX

It’s so liberating to get away from the grip of food. It’s amazing how much time you can save when you’re juicing. And how much aggravation over food disappears.

I had all the energy I needed today to get lots of housework done. Some were things I had procrastinated for a long time, so that felt super good. If I’m not careful, I may live in a well-organized and clean home from top to bottom. I clean every day now instead of when I know someone is coming over. Hmm. Now there’s a concept.

I am SO sleepy though right now. It’s been a long and productive day.

Symptoms:

None to speak of, except had another rough night. So, if the Emotion Code worked, it’s not an immediate or overnight fix for this symptom. Or I’m still not doing it right. I practiced more muscle testing today and learned more about it from various websites. I'm still feeling positive about this method of healing. I just still have more to learn.

I’m not saying I don’t have other symptoms. I do. Several. I’m watching and waiting until I start seeing an improvement and then I’ll share the good news.

  My Goal Productivity  

Project 1/‘Angels Sing’ – 0 hours

Project 2/‘King’s Quest’ – 0 hours

Project 3/‘Golden Eggs’ – 1/2 hours

Project 4/‘Scout it Out’ – 0 hours

Oh well, at least I still got lots done.

DAY FIVE

Wow, can’t believe it’s been five days. Already I feel more comfortable in my clothes and just more comfortable altogether. My mind has cleared enough where I was able to get back into some writing for several hours today. That felt awesome. I didn't want to stop, but I’m really trying to find balance in everything I do. So I let it go, did some reading with my son, juicing, and organizing.

Another thing I spent time on was practicing some muscle testing so I can get good at the Emotion Code. Using the pendulum method I was able to find a trapped emotion yesterday AND today. Now I’m watching and waiting to see if the physical symptoms that they are supposed to have caused, or contributed to, improve or disappear altogether. This is all an experiment for me. But reading further into the Emotion Code book, the method really has my attention. It would be amazing to be able to help people heal in this manner. And it’s so easy. Once you have the muscle testing down.

I will say, the symptom I was testing for yesterday was my heart/chest condition. It woke me up only once or twice, then I was able to sleep the night away. It was wonderful. But I’ll see how tonight and the next few nights go. I do see a challenge in the way I’m doing this. Because I’m juicing at the same time, it will be difficult to know which method is helping me heal. I’m nearly convinced that both will help. Honestly I don’t care right away HOW I am healed. As long as I’m healed, I'll be a very happy person. Several symptoms have plagued me for a few years now, so to see them diminish and disappear would be amazing. I have much hope for the juicing after watching so many videos of how it has changed peoples health and lives.

More Symptoms:

Dry, flaky skin under arms is smoothing out. Can’t wait to see this happen to my forehead as well. My forehead condition is the symptom I ‘Code’ tested today, and through my muscle testing I released the trapped emotion for that as well. Again, we’ll see. If it’s going to do anything, it should be in the next couple of days. I went vegan for the first six months of 2014, and in all that time the skin on my forehead did not clear up, though other things did. It was so frustrating and disheartening. I know strictly juicing is more powerful so I really do have great hopes for this dis-ease to vanish.

No headache or nausea (I am headache prone, so I’m happy that I only suffered during one day this week, and it was not severe).

  My Productivity  

Project 1/‘Angels Sing’ – 1 hours

Project 2/‘King’s Quest’ – 0 hours

Project 3/‘Golden Eggs’ – 7 hours

Project 4/‘Scout it Out’ – 0 hours

Over all I feel great physically, mentally, and spiritually. It's quite a relief to know this isn't that difficult. It's really a mindset. Mind over matter I guess. Life can be so full and rewarding and I'm loving it.

DAY FOUR

Today was great. My energy level was fine all day. I never really felt hungry. I made dinner for son, husband out of town. Enjoyed the aromas but I was fine with not eating it. Got lots done, but maybe too much time spent on learning about and planning for the big goals instead of actually working on them. After all, a main purpose to my cleanse is to nourish but deny my body in order to free up my spirit so I can claim a higher quality of life, filled with accomplishment and purpose.

Tomorrow will be a new focus on moving ahead on things. I’ve given my main goals code names to keep them private, at least for now. After all, a girl can’t give away ALL her secrets.

Project 1/‘Angels Sing’ – 0 hours

Project 2/‘King’s Quest’ – 0 hours

Project 3/‘Golden Eggs’ – 1 hour

Project 4/‘Scout it Out’ – 0 hours

Symptoms:

No nausea

No headache

Didn’t sleep well again last night, until about 1am, I think.

My brain fog is dissipating, though I still anxiously await the clarity I'm hoping for.

I will list other symptoms as they disappear. Sometimes we don’t even know we’ve been dealing with them until they’re gone.

Juicing:
Note to self - do not juice acorn squash. <shudder> Man, that stuff was nasty. I did chug it down, though, as to not waste all those vitamins. Good thing I tasted it by itself first and didn't spoil my whole drink!

DAY THREE

Today was almost a breeze. Maybe because I had a three hour nap from 9am to 12. But here’s something interesting. When I woke up I was so distraught that I’d slept so long and wasted so much time. I have a life now! There’s so much to do and so little time in which to do it!! Time is so precious! I felt such a loss. There are so many things I want to accomplish, exciting things. That was quite a breakthrough attitude for me.

And yet here I am going to bed late again, knowing I have to get up at five. Argh, I must figure out how to make it happen. Last year I did quite well with sticking to a 10:30 bedtime. A busy and stressful fall contributed to my lack of discipline. I took a trip to Texas for my brother’s wedding, spent two weeks in Utah for Thanksgiving and my daughter’s wedding, then Christmas, then New Years with a house full of people. MY people – my daughter and son and their new spouses, and my second daughter who has also moved away.  So… as grateful as I am for all those wonderful things happening, I am also very grateful that things are calming down. I’m so excited for the direction my life will be going in the next few months, doable because of this juice cleanse.

Symptoms:

I got a sudden hot rash on my lower left arm about midday. Actually it’s still kind of there right now. I know rashes can break out when detoxing.

I have a crazy heart/chest condition, where when I lie down, twenty minutes later there are strange and frightening vibrations in my chest. It feels like my heart is threatening to stop. If I sit up it usually subsides and I can lay back down after a bit. But then twenty minutes later (yes, I look at the digital clock every time) it comes on again and I bolt back upright. It can be a long night - although it seems to stop tormenting me by about 3am. I’ve been to the emergency a couple of times and they say my heart is fine and I have the blood pressure of a teenager. It comes and goes, but since I began the juicing, it’s intensified. That scares me a little, but I’m really hoping the juicing will finally allow this condition to heal. Hopefully the detoxing is the cause of it worsening and that it’s only very temporary.

No headache today. Actually I felt great throughout the day, maybe a little hungry a few times.

Juicing:

I’m drinking about three quarts of juice a day, about 2/3 greens to 1/3 fruit and sweeter veggies. I think four quarts is more ideal but that’s just more work. And more peeing. I may add another quart at some time though.

Muscle Testing and the ‘Emotion Code:’

I've been practicing the muscle testing like the guy suggests in this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zTJKxjzqsnM

I’m not interested in what he’s testing, but I do think I can use his method where I’ve failed with other methods. So far I feel like I’m making progress. I read more in the book and read some things I’d never heard of before. I think it’s fascinating and his stories of healing are truly inspiring and motivating. My belief in this system grows stronger all the time.

Avoiding brain Junk:

The only TV I watched today was this video/movie:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWBnDnPoq9c

It was long, but very worth it. I just keep learning and learning. Life is so amazing.

DAY TWO

I kept so busy today I almost didn’t juice enough. But things went well. My energy dropped some. The juice made me feel a little bit nauseous a couple of times. Worse than that, though, were the enemy voices in my head such as: ‘One hundred days is a VERY LONG TIME!’

It doesn’t help that there’s still a ton of holiday food stuffed into my refrigerator and cupboards. Christmas, New Year, and wedding reception food. I really should throw it all out, but at least my hubby and teenage son have food while mom wraps her mind around cooking for them while she doesn’t eat. Not that the food’s a temptation. It’s not; I’m committed. I just don’t want to look at it. I’ve got to keep my spirits up.

Symptoms

Woke up with a slight headache. Was able to get past it by the end of the day with no Ibuprofen.

I think the worst of it has been that it has thrown me into a brain fog. There were a couple of challenging tasks I had to get done, things that needed some serious concentration. So I really struggled with that, but pushed through and got things done.

Also, I was a bit moody.

Lowered energy

Some Nausea while drinking the juice

STARTING WEIGHT